I wanted to tackle the spontaneous crying mentioned in my previous post first because one would wonder why that’s okay. It took months for me to realize what happened and truly be grateful for it. I’ve always been the one to have “it” together. Didn’t matter what “it” was, I had the answer and was able to help people through their problems, sometimes without choice. What this does is gives you the opportunity to help lots of people, but prevents you from realizing the magnitude of certain situations because you just operate and exist. Turns out I had the greater part of 30+ years of unproperly processed emotions, which were weighing on me. They had manifested into all sorts of things I did an amazing job at ignoring.
So, why all of the tears? It turns out the unprocessed emotions were stored up energy waiting to be released. When I had the first Reiki session it stirred up lots of things, which resulted in lots and lots of tears but it was the easiest way for my body to offload what it no longer desired. I like to say Reiki can be akin to a Roto Rooter for your chakras. If your energy is blocked, you’ll know, and when you’re no longer blocked, you’ll know that too. I had a similar experience during my level Reiki 1 training whereby the super Roto Rooter came through and literally cleared up as much as my body would allow at the time.
Whhooooshhh! It was extreme and a rollercoaster. Imagine a garden hose that has a knot for every year you’ve held onto your emotions instead of processing. You may get a trickle of water...eventually...if you’re lucky. Now think of your emotions as those knots, but being released one by one to gradually let the water flow. What would that release be like and how would you react? You’d certainly freak out, but once that was over, you’d start questioning what you were holding onto and why. Then you’d ask again...and again...and again.
When you start to deal with your emotions it clears up space to do all sorts of things. You are able to identify the effects of unprocessed emotions in yourself and others when they are doing the same. You become more forgiving of yourself when you realize you are experiencing an emotion and give yourself permission to explore it because you initiate an inquiry into the emotion, and release it so it doesn’t continue to haunt you or fester becoming something bigger and scarier. You become a super sleuth to explore and clear what you can because you are now aware of the impacts of holding on and the freedom that comes with processing and letting go. You feel lighter and realize each tear, sensation, question were all worth it.
For me, the emotions impacted my mood, reactions to things, interactions with others, health, and overall well-being. Literally everything. I could really be an unpleasant person to be around...and for no good reason. When you live being okay with “not dealing” you take on too much and overextend yourself. You draw unhealthy limits for yourself and create unrealistic expectations for others. You end up being miserable for no good reason and since you’re all blocked up you can’t even find the words to explain how you feel!
The clarity that came with releasing so much emotional baggage heightened my awareness in myself but also interactions with others (we’ll talk about that later). Now I choose to honor my emotions and am no longer afraid of them because I realize how integral they are for healthy living. And I feel so much better for it! The energetic impact of these unprocessed emotions really isn’t worth the cost, either.
How has dealing with your emotions helped you in your life? If you haven't gotten to the point where you regularly do this, what would it take to get to that point?